Well, the hubs has left again....
And I feel sad again...
We were lucky enough to have a few days together over the Memorial Day weekend. Now, life without him again sucks. It never gets easier. Whether it's a deployment, TDY, or in my case training. It never gets easier...
The morning after he left Ariana broke my heart when I went in the get her up. She kept saying "Dada?" and I had to keep telling her "No, Daddy's not here. Daddy is in Texas at school." She looked at me all confused and kept saying "Dada sleep, Dada sleep. My Dada, my Dada" with real tears and all. I finally had to take her in our bedroom and show her that he wasn't in there sleeping. It was the saddest thing ever.
I know a couple of you out there know the feelings I'm feeling right now. Some of you are also doing the long distance thing. Let's cry together haha! Seriously girls, I'm there for you. With our loves gone I want all of you to know, I'm here for you. If you need a sympathetic ear, feel free to send me an email (AFCat84@aol.com). I'm here to listen! I know that with Rich being gone for a few months already (and for another 3 more), I wish some people had stepped up and been there more for me.
I'm not complaining really, I know everyone gets busy with life. I try to stay busy here too but sometimes at nights after Ariana is in bed. The house is way too quiet and I need something to distract me. Our bed is so lonely without him there. His side is filled with pillows so it doesn't seem so empty. Sometimes, I want to lay in the floor and scream and cry, but I keep it inside and keep calm. I carry on. I write him letters, I blog :)
To my pen pals and friends who have been flooding my mailbox with cards and letter, thank you, thank you, THANK YOU!! You really do brighten my days and I look forward to checking the mailbox daily (more than I ever did)! I love getting to know you girls better and seeing all the cute cards and doodles :) It really meals a lot that you all care about me and hope I'm doing okay with him gone.
I hope I'm not being "Debbie Downer" but I felt like I needed to blog some of my feelings. I just love him and miss him.
(That's how I feel...)
Well, I wanted to end this post on a happier note. Last week I created a flickr set for some of my favorite photography that I've taken.
Here is a preview:
If you want to check it out, go here: Cat's Flickr
Check out the Photogrpahy set.
I also have a craft set but I haven't updated it in forever haha!
It's a nice day outside this afternoon, so I think I'm going to go take some pictures of my newest paintings later! I'll probably post them tomorrow! Come back to see them!!
Much love!
xoxo
Cat
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